I hate my life

 This isn't the first post about how much I hate myself and my life but hopefully my entire history won't be deleted this time including this documentation of how much my life is ducking.


Don't worry- I'll be FAIR (HAHAHA ISNT THAT FUNYN) and if and when my life gets better I'll be sure to post about that too, which of course I am dying to do.


A nod to the head to the favt that I am typing without typos.


About 2.4 years ago I was getting high in, I belive the Courtyard by Marriott Chelsea. I was arguing with Verizon about how they kept turning off my data and then trying to charge me more for an "unlimited" data plan, which turned into "unlimited plus" and then "unlimited plus plus." Haha.funny when big companies take advantage of people going through a hard time. 


Anyway, I took a few.more. hits of crystal methamphetamine, and hoped that I would get horny and watch gay porn and not think about how my life had gone to complete shit- and how I knew it was going to get worse - certainly anyone that smoked crystal methamphetamine for 2 months straight without going into work and lying about his absence saying that he was sick - was certainly going to get fired.  And don't worry I did.


And I'm sure also dont worry, I'm either not going to post this, no one will read it, I won't get a job/people will call me a drug addict in need of further rehab - as if the multiple rehabs that I went through (which were lies btw) didn't sufficiently convince me 


Oh look. I feel like not typing anymore. 

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